Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Random Question/Rant of the Day
Why can't "we" be happy for each other? It's amazing that in my 31 years, I have felt more racism and prejudice from my "own people" than from "them". While in college, it was my black friends who laughed when I said I wanted to become an attorney. In law school, it was mainly the black students who were upset when they found out I had good grades and landed a firm job. It's black people who call me "booji" because I can (gasp) drive a nice car and live in a nice house, instead of choosing to live with my mama and have the nice car. It was my black secretary who disrespected me and treated me as if I was inferior and mistakenly given a law degree and bar membership. WHY? I just don't get it. Why is it ok for "them" to have educations, large bank accounts, nice homes, and goals/ambitions BUT when "we" want and earn these same things, we're trying to "act white" or we're not "black" enough. My husband's cousin sarcastically refers to us as the "Huxtables" as if that's a bad thing. I just don't get it. I am proud when I hear that one of us is a doctor, lawyer, entrepreneur. Travel Diva's brother attends an Ivy League college and I told everyone as if he was my sibling. I was so proud. I just don't get it. It's the 21st century and we still have the old slavery mentality. The reason for my rant is because my ex-secretary who I finally dropped after 7 excruciating months together is still obsessed with me. It's like it angers her that a black woman from Bmore could actually be an attorney. Every day I hear about some stupid comment she has made about me. She doesn't like me because I actually wanted her to .....gasp....treat me with the same respect as she gives to the white partner who walks around telling everyone she's "stupid". She can smile in her face and kiss her-ss because she's supposed to get respect BUT for me, she recently questioned the "ranking" of my law school and was "surprised" that the manager of the litigation department exclusively provides me with his work. WTF???? I don't care about her because she's just a disgruntled middle-aged woman who's just hatin' BUT what I do care about is that there are millions like her. Now, I have to tell/teach my kids that they will likely face prejudice by not only "them" but "us" too. That's just sad. Very, Very sad.